It's going to take a long time before I don't miss being able to write to Char. There were so many things I wanted to tell her about our trip to Santa Barbara, for example.
The good thing, though, was that what with when we were in Santa Barbara in July, and on this trip, I had a good visit with Lacie, who previously had ignored me. We had matching pants, for one thing (lol), we played cards and when I was leaving to go home, she ran outside to hug me. Now THAT was a novelty and made me feel very good.
There were other things I wanted to share with Char, mostly how "old" I felt in Santa Barbara. Knowing how she had been feeling prior to her death and the things she told me about how her body was failing, I wanted to share with her how I felt.
If I was lucky, I might have seen her twice a year in the past few years because we lived so far apart, so I won't miss seeing her, but I sure will miss our emails and texts.
Oh, Bev, I'm sorry that Brianna treats you like that. It really isn't acceptable and I'm surprised that her parents allow her to hide in her room and ignore her grandparents. That's very sad. I'm happy to hear you had a good visit with Lacie, she sounds like a great kid and those goodbye hugs feel so good. I understand how difficult it must be for you not to have Char to write to about your visit. When my brother passed away in 2020, I lost the ability to reminisce about our childhood, and to discuss the things we had in common as adults. He was my only sibling. I often found myself saying "oh I'll have to tell Steve this", when a team we both loved played well, or crappy!, haha, but then I'd remember that I couldn't do that anymore. Hugs to you.
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